When I was much younger, I exercised something without fully recognizing how significant the method of it was at the time. Fortunately, it was something I would gratefully rediscover later in life and learn to cherish as the only method preferred with prejudice toward any other. It carried true humility and honesty and delivered simple unadulterated content with the overwhelming recognition of one's own small presence and weakness while knelt in true reverence before an unimaginably immense power. The act was simple and had no real reason for any resistance beyond the possibility of some imagined pride, but yet one that seemingly required external forces to initiate at the time.
It's result was something powerful and that had the ability to be potentially transformative. It created a connection that over the years and in the course of daily life, eventually became overshadowed by the time consuming cares of daily rigors and duties for a time. I realize fully now that it was a very sad and terrible habit to have lost even for a moment. And it's something that I rejoice to have reconnected with for a number of years now. I was just plain and simply, completely open and honest with Father God with a very real expectation that there was no way that He wasn't just as intimately connected with me and would certainly respond.
Like a young child conversing with his daddy, I had open and honest conversation with my Creator. It wasn't the kind of trivial chatter shared with people I might cross paths with in the course of a day, or the more important, potentially life impacting transfer of information shared with human entities in positions of authority. What I once knew and had somehow carelessly drifted away from, was the power of honest and intimate conversation with the power to shake the earth into dust. I had connected with the one awesome power that loves me like no other could and that knows everything about me - even the most intimate hidden details in simple and completely exposed, childlike sincerity, honesty and trust. I poured myself out with the innocence of a child and into a relationship with my Heavenly Father. I was then, well connected.
I eventually came to remember the value of speaking to Father God the way I once had - without the perfunctory repetition of a well rehearsed prayer that I'd once fell into reciting out of nightly obligation. I don't believe that it was a coincidence that as a kid with deep troubles and nowhere else to turn, I'd fallen into heartfelt conversation with the Lord God out of personal anguish and heartfelt necessity, just pouring myself out to Him with a childlike, raw honesty and hopeful trust. I was meant to find Him and even though my side of that conversation later fell silent for a time, He never left it. My conversation with Him was once fresh and newly rended straight from the heart of a child to a Father big enough to deal with what I was struggling with and one worthy of my confidence. And in those moments I felt closer to Him than I've ever been to any human being in my life, either then or since. I'd fail miserably to try to accurately describe it in full to someone who hasn't experienced that closeness, but I can tell you that He met me right there in my brokenness while I talked to Him for hours at my bedside and on my knees in the still darkness.
How I could ever have drifted away from those conversations is a story of encroaching worldly pursuit and passions and a story now gratefully completely dismissed by the treasured and trustworthy Lord that I for a time neglected and treated so disrespectfully. Of course now I'm older and understanding a little more about who it is that I hold those conversations with and how He responds, so some things have changed. But one thing has never changed and never will, I'll always be his deeply loved child and His heart for me is passionate, nurturing and always directing me toward an eternal connection with Him.
Along with knowing His passion for me, I now understand much more that His majesty and power are amazing far beyond my comprehension. And though I am absolutely His dearly loved child, He is the Omnipotent Creator King over everything that exists. He reigns with unimaginable power and is due both my reverent respect and gratitude unendingly. Having grown up some in understanding, I came to realize that my posture needs to acknowledge His position, both as my doting heavenly Daddy and simultaneously as the Eternal King Of Majesty every time I come before Him. By approaching Him that way, I'm honoring Him as He is and am granted a welcomed audience with Him every time I approach Him. He honors me as His own child and as the object of His unfailing, Fatherly direction and careful correction.
A relationship is more than a performance - more than an obligatory recital of rehearsed and well worn lines or the repetitive function of ceremony and obliged obedience without desire. It's open and honest sharing and the intimate exposing of one's heart to another. And there's no more important relationship than the one that everyone is invited into with our Father God. I've personally experienced that that connection is far more powerful and fulfilling than any other and that it has the ability to carry me to heights that far exceed the ability of any mere human capacity. It's the one connection that we were designed to find above any other and our purpose to make.
Stay "Well Connected".
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